My Everyday Facade

Can you all see through this smile?

It's hiding layers of denial.

I stand tall as a statue, day by day,

Yet, I'm crying on the inside everyday.

Drowning in my own sorrows,

do you have any happiness I can borrow?

Don't tell me, the sun is shining.

This pain has latched on, its binding.

It has synthesized, becoming one with me.

It's my past, it breathes my present, awaits my future, it defines me.

I can't shake it off.

I can't wish it off.

I can't dream it off.

It clings to me, like a shadow,

even flowing deeply through me, to the marrow.

Can I find happiness to outshine the pain?

Will that pull away these clouds and stop the rain?

How do I even start this test?

I'm willing to examine this theory, "No Regrets".

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